Healing Through

The Atonement of Jesus Christ

from Childhood Abuse

“But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.” Matthew 18:6 KJV

This v/blog is dedicated to helping the children of a loving Father in Heaven to create a relationship with Jesus Christ to find peace in The Prince of Peace from childhood abuse.

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Trigger warnings are a form of censorship because they’re done in the name of “everyone gets a trophy”. Learning about yourself is painful. It’s often ugly and traumatic. As you create a relationship with Jesus Christ, the pain and destructive behaviors can be replaced by Peace.

“I was one way and now I am completely different and the thing that happened in between was Him.” – character of Mary Magdalene in “The Chosen”

So, what is the point of this v/blog that I have started about possibly helping anyone who has been abused? And I’m talking about the extremely difficult forms of abuse: physical, sexual and yes, even ritualistic, satanic abuse. I’m not a licensed therapist or counselor. Nor do I have any letters at the end of my last name that would give anyone the idea that I have the expertise to counsel anyone who has been abused.

What can I offer? Who am I to offer these things? It comes down to this one truth: I can offer everything that my Savior, Jesus Christ, has given me and taught me by creating a loving relationship with Him. I can offer my experiences of healing. I can offer ways of finding peace through The Prince of Peace.

I can offer the knowledge that as a boy from the age of three to the age of six I was sinned against by other people for their own selfish pleasures and yet, I have come across the gulf of misery and endless wo to find Jesus with outstretched arms, waiting for me to give up my own attempts of healing myself. I can offer the knowledge that I understand nightmares, blood in my underwear, horrible fears of adults, severe anger, authority figures, feeling sad for most of my life without knowing why, unexplained anxiousness and that some cruel adults really do practice Satanic rituals. I’ve wondered to myself, “didn’t they have something better to do like mow the lawn?” I’m certain that someday in the near future, they will wish they had done something, anything, differently.

As an adult, I can offer understanding of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), borderline personality disorder, social anxiety, severe anxiety disorder (SAD), suicide attempts, self-injury, panic attacks, involuntary and voluntary hospitalizations and more. There are so many other behaviors that the abused exhibit, there isn’t any possible way for me to understand most of the outward expressions that others will have.

I can offer the truth that somehow, someway, in a series of wonderful, yet mostly painful events, I have been able to go through (not over or around) this knowledge of abuse with the assistance of many wonderful therapists and counselors whom I will never forget.

If you have been abused or neglected and want to find Peace, then you have work to do. The work that needs to be done will be lighter through Jesus Christ than any other way, especially attempting to do it yourself. In fact, you can’t do it by yourself.

As I begin this blog, the final offering that I can make is that I know that there is a loving Father in Heaven and that He sent His Only Begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to be a safe harbor for the abused. Ships find peaceful waters in a harbor. Jesus didn’t die only for the sins of the billions of people that have lived and are living on this earth. In a prophecy given by Alma in The Book of Mormon, Another Testament of Jesus Christ, is that He “will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities.” – Alma 7:12 (underlining by me for emphasis)

Jesus Christ loves you. He wants to hear you pray to the Father in His name. If you decide to pray today, asking Him to help you find a Way to discover His Peace, He will answer you. It may not be in the timeframe that you desire, but he will answer you. Isaiah wrote, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” saith the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:8–9). This doesn’t mean that some who pray for peace won’t receive it immediately. Others may have to wait on the Lord. However, all of us should continue praying to God, The Eternal Father in the name of Jesus Christ. He already knows all of your thoughts and feelings so why not just speak those thoughts and feelings to Him? I have never been able to surprise God and I don’t think you can either.

One final thing: first read this paragraph and then please scroll back up to the incredible painting by Carl Bloch, “Christ And Child”. Look at the face of Jesus. Look more. Look a little longer. Study His eyes. Study His expression. Once you have His beautiful face etched your mind, ask yourself: “Will one who has abused, neglected or harmed a child or children see this face as merciful?” To me, His face is stern and unyielding in a perfect judgment. This is the face of Jesus that no one would want to encounter on Judgment Day. He has infinite awareness, understanding, and insight of the perpetrator and the perpetrated. He is Omniscient.

I owe Him everything that I am and all that I can lay upon His altar of personal sacrifice. The Mosaic Law was fulfilled in Him. A broken heart and a contrite spirit is now what he asks of us. He has become everything to me. I love Him with all my heart, might, mind and strength. All that I can offer Him is my utmost devotion to His teachings. I offer Him my sins and transgressions which he bought with His blood in The Garden of Gethsemane and on the cross of Calvary. He knows that I am a sinner and I need His forgiveness everyday.